You know, during some of point in life, you get emotional out of the sudden. I might not have done my duties as a good daughter, sister or as a reassuring friend. I do regret some of the things that I've done. If I get to choose between continuing my life as myself or becoming a whole new person. I'd choose to be someone else. Deep inside me, through the stoic exterior, I think I'm pretty weak and unhappy. But apparently, there are no such things as choosing to become someone else and who you are cannot be changed.
I have this empty feeling inside of me. Something is missing but I have no idea what it is. Its eating at my heart, my head is in the clouds and my mind is pretty messed up right now. I feel like maybe one day I should just board a train, leave everything behind and head to the hinterlands. And maybe I might be able to forget everything bad that happened but you know, this only happen in fairy tales. Although I might not be able to fully understand life since I'm still at the stage of preadolescence but I know reality is too cruel to let that happen. Well I hope, life would get better.
Happy February.... NOT?
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