to a friend

Hi people, sorry for not updating my blog with fancy photos these days. Apparently, I have alot to say on my mind and I think that this blog would do my troubled mind some justice. So anyway, I'm sure most of you have friends or people that you know of who is really narrow minded and selfish. Its like their brain is too small to allow any more thoughts into it apart from their very own. And their mind is like a grossly packed (with self-indulgence and love) alley that nobody's ideas or statements can squeeze through it. So apparently, I have a friend like this. I cannot say I still consider this person as a friend because he/she (I shall not reveal the sexual orientation of this person. Assumptions are welcomed.) is such a delusive person and all of the above.

I really cannot understand people who spread misleading rumours about me because if you're so sure about what you say, why don't you just say it in my face? Why are you such a coward? Why don't you tell me that you dislike me or fucking whatever? That is better than talking behind my back. And if you've told me what I've done to make you angry then I would change for the better. I would gladly accept your judgement but with a pinch of salt. At least I've done something. The point here now is, I don't remember offending anyone because I stick to my own and I don't talk shit like you. Who cares if you have a lot of friends? Remember who was there for you when you're there marinating in self pity and crying over someone who doesn't even give a shit about you anymore?! There you go... I don't think you do because if you do, we would still be friends.

I don't get why you're so fucking angry over non-existent (none that I know of) trivial matters. I've not done anything wrong and I've not let you down. You have no rights to talk about me since I've tried mending this problem when its not even my fault but you are not helping. Then you go calling me a bitch when you don't even want to tell me what I did wrong to offend you. Seriously, some people are just so weird. I don't understand what is going on in their uncanny state of mind. You're clearly unabashed by what you've done but I hope you stop your erroneous judgements. What you are doing is wrong but your futile act has no effect on me. Ok, I admit that I'm disappointed and I'm sad that I've lost a friend. You used to be a great person, what happened? I guess, people really do change over time huh?

If you're reading this and you know who you are... I hope you understand.